Tuesday, December 04, 2001

 

I had this awesome yet extremely depressing dream last night. I dreamt that I went to the GC concert and I met the band (like I did) and they asked me to chill with them afterwards. So I hung out with all of them in this house for a while and me and Benji became tight *crosses her fingers*, like romantically. Then one day they said that they had to leave and I was all sad and crying so I went with Benji and the rest of the band to the airport to say goodbye. Benji gave me a note saying that he would always love me and that he'd come back for me someday, he just didn't know when and he signed it love Benji. Then we hugged and cried and said our goodbyes and he left with his gf and he looked over his shoulder at me and was all sad and depressed because he'd rather be with me than her. Then I woke up and started to get dressed for school and I was watching MTV (like I always do in the morning) and "Blurry" by Puddle of Mudd came on and I just started bawling like a baby because it triggered something inside of me. I guess because in my dream I had lost the love of my life and I still hadn't processed it so I just started crying. Like actual tears ran down my cheeks. Then all today I was thinking about Benji and stuffies. I'm such a sap. This hot guy that lives in Chandler and I are talking and I hope things work out and stuff cuz I'm ready to get back into the game baby! Woohoo! TTYL.

Ashley bragged about her experience at 8:33 PM.

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